Yesterday for some reason I couldn’t sleep. Yes, I was guilty of mindlessly watching three episodes of Frasier. I have learned from this show how to be very eloquent with one’s opinion and love the bond between the two brothers, they are their true friends. Getting back to my status, I was up till 1.30 am tossing and turning. The restless night made it difficult for me to recover from the mentally tiring day, and I blame it on my lack of restful sleep that, I woke up the next morning with an itchy throat and low energy.
Kids had a two-hour delayed school start. The morning though I woke up later than my usual time was not rushed. My high schooler kids make their breakfast and they get ready for their school, so I can focus on my morning routine. I am truly grateful for my morning time for myself. Yes, I thank my family for being self-sufficient and respecting my alone time.
I have been trying to get up early to finish my routine early to be with the kids when they leave for school but I have not been very consistent at that. For that, I have to build the discipline of going to bed by 10.00 pm, which I have not been able to do, as that’s the time my husband and I watch television together, maybe it’s a connection to laugh and enjoy the same show. Though I want to push our ritual of watching TV, post-dinner and before bedtime, I have not been able to do that yet.
Anyways back to today, post my morning meditation and exercise, which I try to be regular about, I focused at work. I am studying for CPA on my side, with that said, I am enjoying accounting challenges at work, as I am trying to learn real-life accounting challenges. I had a bugging thought on my mind that I had to get my daughter’s eye check-up scheduled as she is low on contact lenses. In between work, I tried to reach our vision doctor to be kept on hold for a while. But I have to admit that the receptionist was polite enough to find an opening during the day to squeeze my daughter’s eye check-up in.
It’s difficult for me to take a break from my routine, as I almost have every hour of the day scheduled. But I thought I’d take the opportunity to spend a good time with my now 18-year-old daughter. When I went to pick my daughter up I realized that she was not the best of herself. She had been crying. I knew better not to barge her with questions so I kept quiet giving her time to get herself together.
We had a quiet drive to our vision doctor’s office. I could sense that my daughter was constantly communicating over her cell phone and trying to resolve her problem. As a mother, I want to give her advice that you have to look inside yourself and find answers or questions, and you cannot find them by asking or reasoning with others. But maybe she is not of the right age to understand that.
Once we were at the doctor’s office and still I saw her on her phone texting and visibly upset, I asked her to understand what was happening and that she was ruining the present moment, as I had thought that I would spend a good time with her which was not happening at all.
Maybe that’s why it is said that “now” is a “present”….yes it is…it’s very important how we are spending our “now”. Love and peace to all.
# Something hard for me that I forced myself to do today:
Exercise, as I was low energy today.
#Which podcast I am currently listening to?
https://www.richroll.com/podcast/suleika-jaouad-807/
#What increased my energy today?
My family all four of us went out for an impromptu dinner.
#I love photography and I believe in capturing moments…I may not have the correct lighting, but it captures a memory for me.
